Breakdown . | Friday, May 22, 2009
Wat was the feeling was when u ferst realised dat u actually fall in loved ? I remembered bck den, i was speechless knowing dat my bestfren lyke me, i had never imagine dat one dae i would date hym . Too mee bck den, he was juz my lovely guy bestfren, who would listen to all my probs, who would be there for me wen i need a shoulder to cry onn , who would be the ferst person to knoe who i admire and many more, little did i realise dat he would be my everyting one dae, and till now and maybe forever .
Remembering the past was juz soo wonderful, the daes when he started to care for me more den juz a fren, the dae he promise me dat he wont break my heart, the dae he saes dat his forever mine and the dae he ask me to be his .
The ferst tyme he held my hand mins after i was his, the ferst tyme he kissed me , the ferst tyme he hug me , the ferst tyme he cried for my stupid actions, the ferst tyme he saes ' I LOVE YOU SHERIL' .
The last tyme when he saes dat im no longer his, the last tyme dat i saw hym with sumone else, the last tyme i hear news dat i should not hear, the last tyme dat he told me to move onn, the last tyme when he confess dat im no longer in his heart .
1 yr 2 mths was wat we manage to hold onn . 10 mths has passed, ive not onlie lost sumone dat i reallie loved but ive lost my lovely bestfren too .
Now, ive tried again and again to fall in love and moved onn and atlast i did, sumone stole my heart, he suddenly came in and gave me wat ive lost 10 mths ago, loved, no one ever called me everyting dat he called me but den i realised dat i cant really find his loved, wat most i felt was my past loved .
I knoe people changed, but den deep inside my heart i knoe dat his still my onlie Dodol dat ive known 5 yrs bck . I juz wanna tell u, if one dae im with sumone else, u are still keep safe inside my heart and i wont ever forget u cause i had never love sumone lyke how i love u .
I had never meant to force u to loved me, i was onlie worried dat u would forget me and love sumone else, i knoe im selfish but i cant denied dat i reallie love u but den i realise dat maybe i was not meant for u and im spechless now to continue ..
U never knoe how much imy dodol .
Sumtymes i keep wondering is there any 2nd chance in loved ?
Sheril .
